Often times we can only see things as they happen and enjoy them for the moment and move on. It seems to be rare that we take the time to look back and to seek what is yet to come in God’s timing. The challenge it seems lies in ones ability to, as the expression goes “see the forest through the trees”, and see what God is doing every step of the way. I know much of this last year
and a half has been reacting from one thing to another as they came. The challenge continues to be to see the blessings in the midst to truly cherish the truth that God is sovereign and He holds the details. Between finishing at Newcastle and attending school for a year, preparing to go to Oklahoma only to see that fail and finally working at Futureshop until being called to Summerside it was full of uncertainty and difficulty.
The truth of the matter is that it became difficult to sense God in the midst, we lost the forest we saw only our situations. I saw often that I would argue with God and ask Him what He was doing. Though many of our circumstances were not the end of the world and they were not difficult compared to much of what others have dealt with they weighed heavy on us. I found it especially difficult for me as someone who is to provide for my family and live in a way that honours and respects them so they have safety and security and I couldn’t even tell where those things would come from. I put myself in the place of god to be the one who provides all things instead of the one who seeks His direction and realize His provision. We had a place to live with family and wonderful friends. We had food on the table, I was able to find a job that I enjoyed and still all I saw was trees. Thankfully we serve a God who is patient with us who understands our humanness and reveals Himself. 2 Tim 2:13 “if we are faithless, he remains faithful — for he cannot deny himself”. God has been truly faithful to us through this time, God has taught us, broken us, refined us, moved us, and grown us.
We in no way have it all together sometimes our vision is still blocked by trees but our prayer is to see the forest more often than not, to see God for all He is and what He is doing, to be a part of His goals and purposes and to see Him glorified.
Some of the blessings he has bestowed on us this past year alone have been seeing our daughter turn 3 and watching as she learned to ride a bike. I get the joy of making puzzles with her and playing with her, taking her on Daddy Daughter dates and watching as her imagination grows and she dresses up changing clothes all
Oliver is now one and so much has changed, his sense of humour is coming though and he loves playing with toys that have buttons and music, and he is a big snuggler.
Beckie is now able to be a homemaker again since we are in our own place (pictures to follow soon!!!) and she is enjoying all these things and the idea of hosting people and having visits.
I am now able to enjoy and rest in certainty of my call here to PEI God has spoken and I am so thankful. I am adjusting to being gluten free since being quite sick in September and being very grateful I was not in the states while going through that. And Beckie and I are enjoying being tv free. We have no television in our house and have been loving spending our evenings playing with the kids talking and reading.
A few books that we are reading are
Beckie & Chris:
Real Marriage by Mark & Grace Driscoll
Weird by Craig Groeschel
Dwelling by Mary Beth Lagerborg
Jesus + Nothing = Everything by Tullian Tchividjian
IT by Craig Groeschel
Erasing Hell by Francis Chan
Steve Jobs by Walter Isaacson
My First Message (kids bible)
The Jesus Storybook Bible (kids bible)
Our time here in Summerside though it has been short we have had wonderful rejuvenation and joy. The people have been so welcoming and hospitable and we are anticipating how God will continue to shape us for this ministry. We pray that you would be aware of God’s blessing and presence even more as we move into 2012.
Love and Blessings
The Keezer Family